Don’t we all want to look back and think ‘Man, I really nailed my life!’. With influencers, friends and celebrities flying left, right and centre on social media, there’s a fine line between feeling like you’ve achieved something and feeling like someone’s done it better. I’ve learnt the hard way that it’s very easy to get caught up in what someone else is doing and holding onto the feeling that they’re doing everything better. We spend our time comparing and criticising ourselves daily when we could push that negative energy into worrying about what you’re doing and how you can be the best YOU.
Let's be honest, life’s short and we have a limited number of days to make a difference and leave some of ourselves behind - a legacy if you will. I want to make a difference and I want to look back to last week and to three years ago or twenty years and be proud of what I've done and achieved myself.
Past me is not one to be proud of herself. From a young age I was often called lazy, stupid, annoying by my peers, and so that’s how I perceived myself. I didn’t know any other version of me, and everyone else was by default always better than me. Comparing myself to others came naturally, when really I should have been working on myself, to better myself, to make myself stronger and more confident. Easier said than done I know… Luckily, there’s no time like the present. So this is the Emily I know myself to be today.
At the beginning of the year I started a five year diary, and instead of doing what I usually do and writing about the number of Netflix episodes I watched that day, I’ve begun writing about all the things I achieved that day, pushing myself to achieve at least one thing every single day (still, though, binge watching an entire TV series in one day is an achievement, am I right?) From someone who struggles with mental health, every day can be an obstacle and understandably sometimes living through the day is an achievement in itself, and if all I’ve done today is get out of bed and open my curtains on the hardest of days, then I’m pretty proud of myself.
Ultimately I want to leave my mark on the world, I want to use my platform to make a difference, and I want to make my future self-proud, work hard and make my own way in life. Just as someone said to me the other day, “an author is just a writer who never gave up.”
Depending on your outlook on life, whether it be working hard to succeed or chilling and enjoying yourself only you personally can decide that you’ve done yourself proud. So what I'm trying to say is, look after yourself, don't ever stop, don't ever give up and you're so so worth it.